Is it....YES IT IS......

Too much on my mind...

Don't know where to begin...

Its ironic and quite horrible that we as humans pretend to learn lessons...we convince ourselves that we learn things...after the pain, the fall, the struggle...we get up...say "Wow I'll never repeat that" ....and still fall victim of the same things we coach our friends on...

When is enough enough???

Life has started to unravel...yet it gets knit together by the people we meet, the situations we put ourselves in, the struggles we face (whether they be controlled or not)....things just simply begin to make sense....its ironic how when one stops stressing, and worrying about the uncontrollable how simple life seems...

With all the turmoil and obstacles I still remain with a sense of inner peace...an inner peace that amaZes me...teaches me that I've grown...that I've changed...starting to completely appreciate the person I am and the person I'm becoming....

s.i.m.p.l.y.c.o.n.t.e.n.t.w.i.t.h.t.h.e.d.i.r.e.c.t.i.o.n.o.f.L.I.F.E

I struggle and I fall....but I rise and overcome....

"I am a woman I can do whatever I want"

the time has come...


"I, with a deep instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman" ~ Anais Nin

"I will not be just a tourist in the world of images, just watching images passing by which I cannot live in, make love to. Possess as permanent sources of joy and ecstasy." ~ Anais Nin

"I am an excitable person who only understand life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger as reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I cannot transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. NO MORE WALLS." ~ Anais Nin

Anais Nin -how clearly you share the same feelings and emotions I am sharing....

I shall not limit myself to your standards - I shall build my own and break the walls to demonstrate that there is no limit to me...I.A.M.A.M.A.Z.I.G and desire MARVELOUS events....

Albert Einstein

"Sometimes in our relentless efforts to find the person we loVe we fail to
recognize and appreciate the people who loVe us. We miss out on so many
beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own
selfish concerns. Go for the Man of deeds and not for the Man of words for
you will find rewarding happiness not with the Man you loVe but the man who
loVes you more. The best loVers are those capable of loVing from a
distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but never too far to feel the
loVe deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to
stop loVing, it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own
happiness without expecting him/her to come back. Letting go is not just
setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all
bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the
bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your Faith, and never allow pain
to dishearten you but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
You may find peace in just loVing someone from a distance not expecting
something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can
never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just
beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open
acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when
we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting
so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of
our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The
sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more
for us than just a friendship, we start our desperate attempt to get noticed and
be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up feeling
sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you loVe. What
you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter
or sorry for yourself. Believe me. You would be better off giving
that dedication and loVe to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart
run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not
only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you
lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lost
loVe that doesn't mean that you failed in loVe. Cry if you have to, but
make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and bitterness that the past has
left with you. Let go of yesterday and loVe will find its way back to
you. And when it does, pray that it may be the loVe that will stay and
last a lifetime. There are two ways to live your life. One is as
though nothing is a miracle. The other is though everything is a miracle."

- Albert Einstein

the DEAFinition

::emotion: ....not necessary....::

through deaf ears you said you loved me...
through deaf ears you said you'd be there....
through deaf ears you said you'd never hurt me...

through deaf ears you said you hated me...
through deaf ears you said you'ld leave...
through deaf ears you said you were certain to hurt me...

through deaf ears you said hello...
through deaf ears you said she'd never be me...
through deaf ears you said you are my only...

through deaf ears your said goodbye...
through deaf ears you said she'd always be better...
through deaf ears you said i have many...

through deaf ears I heard you love me, you hate me
through deaf ears I heard I'll never leave you, I'm leaving
through deaf ears I heard I won't hurt you, I'm sure to hurt you
through deaf ears I heard Hello, Goodbye
through deaf ears I heard she'll never be you, because she's better than you
through deaf ears I heard You are my only, but I share me with many...


the deaf ears being Love[Fear]...

its time to truly start listening and realizing...Love is here - not because of what i do for you - not because I won't leave you - not because others aren't being what they once were...but because maybe because u simply truly honestly just love me....

.....These deaf ears become selective...selective hearing...of things I want to be there...not things that are there....to me it seems to simple...so clear....so consise...to me its just obvious...or did these deaf ears create cloudy eyes........................
'

"Dogs love their friends and bite their enemies, quite unlike people, who
are incapable of pure love and always have to mix love and hate" Sigmund
Freud

"Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw
blood in its defense." ~Mark Overby

coming back to you.....

::emotions: ....undescribeable::

"Just remember someone always needs you even when the person(s) you want to need you make you feel they don't need you"

Now - dissection time...

Need: lack of something requisite, desirable, or useful; a physiological or psychological requirement for the well-being of an organism (Webster's Dictionary)

I take it back to an older post - a post about needs and wants and how humans tend to not know how to decipher the two - here we are agian a few posts later still trying to figure out what exactly causes people to think they NEED somethign when in reality all they really feel is WANT

One needs: Food, water, oxygen ....to live...

But I just figured something out - one NEEDS someone else to feel - feel wanted - feel satisfied - loved - catered - nutured - desired - carressed - passionate - to be angry at - to blame - to hate (which is really love)...

Yup, that's right I said it...to know how to hate someone you have to learn and know how to love them first....

.....leaving this undone...

::emotions:....none really - content - @ some points wanting more but realizing life isn't about ur wants its about ur needs and right now needs r being met::

Life has a way of makin u realize things...
Signs u never saw start to become clear...
People u never admired become part of the forefront of ur life...
Situations u never thought u'd b in are becomin everyday life...
Decisions u never thought you'd have 2 make are quickly presenting themselves...
Life has a crazy way of bringin things full circle...

Thing is this circle of life - the inevitable path that everyone completes must start somewhere - starts as a single point - and this is where u make your decisions - where to start the circle and in which direction you should start it in - once the decision is made the path must commence and the end is already in place - its just a matter of how big u decide to make this path and how much of your life you allow this path to consume.

I once read that life is about the choices u make - and the journey is the path it takes to get from start to finish...after living the past few months and watchin people live and make their choices I've come to the conclusion that the statement is true - real for lack of better words.
So everyday I make a choice (whether its small or big) and start my journey...on my path - either closing old chapters in my book of life or continuin to allow those charcters to enter the next chapter in my book...my life.

Always rememberin that the inevitable is just that - I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E.



"It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely."

the CIRCLE...the BOOK...my LIFE

::emotions: none really - content @ some points - wanting more @ others but realizin life isn't about ur wants its about ur needs and right now needs r being met::

Life has a way of makin u realize things...
Signs u never saw start to become clear...
People u never admired become part of the forefront of ur life...
Situations u never thought u'd b in are becomin everyday life...
Decisions u never thought you'd have 2 make are quickly presenting themselves...
Life has a crazy way of bringin things full circle...

Thing is this circle of life - the inevitable path that everyone completes must start somewhere - starts as a single point - and this is where u make your decisions - where to start the circle and in which direction you should start it in - once the decision is made the path must commence and the end is already in place - its just a matter of how big u decide to make this path and how much of your life you allow this path to consume.

I once read that life is about the choices u make - and the journey is the path it takes to get from start to finish...after living the past few months and watchin people live and make their choices I've come to the conclusion that the statement is true - real for lack of better words.
So everyday I make a choice (whether its small or big) and start my journey...on my path - either closing old chapters in my book of life or continuin to allow those charcters to enter the next chapter in my book...my life.

Always rememberin that the inevitable is just that - I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E.



"It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely."

taking CHANCES - is makin CHOICES

Emotions: absolutely amazed and happy -- lovin me...

Its absolutely amazin how when you start living things just seem to fall into place...

Its absolutely amazin that when u stop thinkin and start acting things just fall into place...

Its absolutely amazin that when u stop forcin things to happen the things u were tryin 2 make happen just happen...

I live - I let happen - I enjoy.

Life works in the most mysterious ways - its been a pleasent suprise a beautiful suprise the most amazin ride...the ride of life -- u chose ur paths but life still happens - there will b more than 1 fork in the paths to follow so dnt regret nethin and don't wish u took the other path because u'll stop livin and start thinkin...

The rollercoaster that I spoke about b4 no longer is the same rollercoaster I'm on -- that 1 was pur emotion - this one is the rollercoaster of my life....

"Your choices are always half chance" - Life is about takin chances, so I make choices
:::lovin the me I'm becomin:::

the CONnection

::no real purpose for this post except for the memory::
 
…I sit…
…I wonder…
…I dream…
…I live…
…I breathe…
…I smile…
 
The CONnection
 
The sweet smell of the Yankee Candle…
The street lights shining…
The raining hitting against the roof of the car….
The sounds of music lingering in the background…
The sweet familiar smells….
The hearts beating – with one touch our breath deepens and our hearts race…
No, don’t do that…friends don’t do that he says…
Friends? She wonders
The desire and the magnetic connection to one another never felt like a friend….
The coquettish ways he plays with her…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where he wants to be
The coquettish ways she finds a way to touch him…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where she wants to be
Time passes….songs plays….words lessen…and thoughts soar….
He leans into her…
She closes her eyes – takes a deep breath and remembers all the memories they shared together…
The comforting of his scent…the gentleness of his arms….the pressure he places upon her while he’s holding her….the safeness she felt in his presence…and everything comes back…
She wants him….
“Should I go?” She Says
“Wait til the rain stops…” He says
He lays on her – she holds him
No words are spoken
No words are needed….
For those moments in time they connect again – realizing how much they truly missed each other
He backs away….she lays on him
His hand caressing her back….as if to say: I want to protect you and hold you:
She feels him contemplating….
She feels him thinking….
His hands wander over her body….feeling her soft skin against his hands…running by every curve…taking in every smell….
He stops…his mind wanders again…he looks at her….
She runs her hands down him chest, past his stomach…grazes his penis…only to remember the first time he entered her…
----That cold day in December – a day she lives over and over again – pure bliss  - complete pleasure…the clothes came off the intense breathing and anticipation and he came closer to her…the first moment he slowly entered her – the world seemed to stop and all they knew was them…----
She kisses his neck – he kisses her back….
She slides off his belt…slides her hand down his boxers to find an old companion – a companion she knows and remembers so well – a companion she’s missed…
As the rain continues to hit up again the car – you see her polished hands sliding up and down….
Her soft hands rubbing against his soft skin….she hears his heart speed up…she feels her heart speed up…
She swallows deeply…
Holds her breath – just to listen to his body…
They undress themselves…She lays back…
He kisses her….
Comes up against her….her moisture welcomes him….
Enticing him to come closer and deeper….
He slides his arms around her – kissing her…
He feels her breast up against his skin…looks at her…and enters her slowly…
She accepts him…slowly and deeply her body wraps around his….
And just like that Cold Day in December – pure bliss – complete pleasure – intense breathing – hearts racing…
“You feel so good, I forgot how good you felt” he says
“You feel amazing…” She replies
She gets wetter and wetter with every stroke….
He slides in and out of her…kissing her…holding her closer…slow than fast…. than slow than fast again….she wants him close…
She moans his name….
He moans hers….
“I’ve missed you” He moans in her ear – sending chills across her body
“I’ve missed you too” She moans
“I want you to cum for me – I want you to give it to me” He tells her as he reads her body language realizing how good she feels….
Time passes….pleasure increases….
And before she realizes she’s at the point of climax…he knows just what to do…just how to do…just when to do it…
She digs her nails into his back…moaning…”don’t stop”
Bodies clench – Muscles begin to tighten….she feels him pulsating in her…he feels her walls tighten around his penis…
And………………………………………..
:::::::::::breathing deepens, hearts races, they come closer to each others, look at one another:::::::::::
………………………………………………………………………………………They RELEASE!!!!
…wishing the moment wouldn’t end, she gets dressed…kisses him…and says good night…
He watches her walk in the house and races home…..
 
Both left with racing minds…..knowing the situation but not really sure as to what to do….
 
She falls asleep to dream of the next time their bodies will meet again….
 
Until than…she remains his companion…his eternal companion…knowing and dreaming that one day the connection they both feel will be a reality…
 
 
 
 
 
 
“Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does.  Love  is a battle, love is a war, love is a growing up” ~ James Arthur Baldwin

REVEALation pART 2

emotions:......understanding....

Part 2...

1. I don't understand people - how is it that its so ez for the words "I want to b wit u " to come out of someone's mind but the actions are so complicated - oh ppl.

2. Inhibitions - what is the point of anyone putting rules or regulations on what they truly want to do? Who's idea was that?

3. It seems so simple for people to get what they want out of me and move forward but when they take that piece I have such a hard time letting go of that piece - who sed I wnted to share?

4. I've often feel that I am a step stool for others - I have this way of bringin out these amazing qualities in ppl and makin ppl see them and keep them - but when it comes time to enjoy those qualities they walk away and sum1 else gets the greatness

5. A moment - a memory - a lifetime --i need to lrn to that those r the categories

6. No matter how distant I keep myself frm him.....the moment I c him its like nothing ever happened

7. Mental stimulation is by far the hardest but the most necessary.

8. Why do ppl speak words - is it the truth or more to convince themselves

9. I kno who I truly am - and understand what I want

10. I kno that's I dnt want him as just a friend and will never speak of him being "just my friend"


More to come ....

"If you get the chance take it, if it changes your life let it.
Nobody said it would be easy they just promised it would be worth it."

REVEALations pART I

::emotion: ..................::

So - a few revelations have come my way I shall list them:

1. I am a true diamond and the ppl around me have been noticing it - slowly peelin away the ugly layers to allow myself to truly shine - and just like a diamond is forever, when I truly care its forever - good and bad.

2. I've been wearing a mask - and one persin was able to c my true colors and see my true face and truly every aspect of me - and now I fear wit the pain ill wear that mask to him too - tryin to slowly avoid puttin it on, but yesterday I let it happen - told the truth today.

3. U came into my life unexpectedly.....::beautiful suprise::

4. So - gettin close to ppl - what's the point? What does it do? Should ppl b trusted with the most valuable thing in ur life - urself

5. Giving up - what does that mean? Just bc u let sum1 go does it mean u give up on them?? Or could it b that that's where u r supposed 2 b - y is It that the ppl that are so much btr for you u dnt fight for but the ones that want u 2 be sumthing u aren't or dnt make you any better u fight for? I mean seriously - humans make no sense - if one used their head and not their heart one may make decisions differently

6. The ones u give the most to take the most from u but give u the least.

7. I realize that power lies in the person that makes the decisions. Had decisions been made by sumone else and not left solely to one person - people wouldn't have so much power over others.

8. I truly do have the most amazing women in my life....

9. Breakin up is truly hard to do....hey when I was younger it was just a song to me.

10. I have an eternal partner...through the trials and tribulations, all the pain and agony - i can't seem to hate him and be mad at him....

11. Music truly heals the soul....its amazing how many songs one can relate with....

12. I am more in touch with my emotions and myself than i thought I was...i am more rational and levelheaded than i thought i was and in the end I am truly amazing and noone can take that from me...



Within the next few days many more revelations will come - so i labeled this pART 1......

-T

i'll be back shortly.....

"You got to stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone used to be"

Definition of Happines

::emotions: NONE::

Can someone please define “happiness”?

What does it mean to you???

Looking forward to comments….

unBREAKable Rollercoaster Ride

::emotions: lost completely lost::

The unbreakable cycle….

My cycle isn’t a Circle…it’s a parabolic line – a never ending parabolic line….There is the uphill which is great and amazing and than you reach the top and things seem so perfect and BOOM down they go….faster than the uphill climb waiting to reach rock bottom…and the momentum that brings you down bring you back up and you go with it because as a human you want to feel good you want to be “happy” <> ---so the next uphill feels great and you reach the top a little quicker b/c its never that initial high…and you rapidly turn around and come back down again with the momentum to go back up…

Like a rollercoaster – you can never make the same fall twice – each fall is closer and closer to the ground...until you eventually level out…and are @ the bottom….all you can do is decide “do I ride this rollercoaster again or do I move to a different one” – and I keep getting back in line for this same rollercoaster…this same cycle hoping for a different outcome…

There comes a time in life when you must leave that comfort zone leave that rollercoaster and jump on another – something completely different – with loops and turns and higher drops and a bigger risk…when will I make that move…the courage within keeps me in the comfort of my own ride…the ride I create the one I enable – the one that I am so used to – I’ve gotten off that rollercoaster and tried new ones, but with similar qualities…seeing a common denominator and just jumping on b/c its “safe”….

Learning to let go is just so hard…

In complete desperation – T……

LimboTIC Confusion

::emotions: WTF, clueless, scared, relieved, distressed, stressed, angry, happy, confused, frustrated::

Limbo – of emotions, of thoughts, of movement…take 3 4 5 6 steps forward only to retract….back to the state of limbo…back to the state of unknown…you know…I never thought I’d be going backwards in life while watching everyone speed in front….ugh…its me isn’t it!!?? I must have that effect…

Decision is made – now time to put that decision into action- not angry, not upset, not happy, not sad, not content, but its necessary and the best thing for everyone involved @ this current moment –I can just hope the next time I have this discussion there will be no torn feelings and things will make perfect sense…and no questioning and no maybes just a definite “LETS DO IT – I’m EXCITED!”

What does one do when words and actions are so contradictory…and sometimes the actions from the past become words of the present but the actions are still contradicting???

Things I want to know:

My point in your life?

My worth in your life?

Your desire of me in your life?

Your want for me in your life?

Your need for me in your life?

*Can you answer those for me please? Completely wholeheartedly and honest*

See I can answer all those questions with certainty…it isn’t hard…how can one truly never know how they are feeling? Could it be fear to let the words come out of their mouths?? Could it be the simple fact that if they voice it, it mean its true?

This entry is full of questions: maybe my emotion should be ::intrigued, inquisitive, questioning, confusion::: Hmmm that’s what I’ll title this…Limbo tic (not even a word but it makes sense) Confusion – or a Limbo of Confusion…hmmmm Idk yet….

I’m at a point in my life where sometimes I wonder about myself – I’m at a stage in my life where sometimes I feel like I just settle for “okay” settle for acceptable – for LIMBO….how do I shake that? The courage has to come from somewhere – is it so blatantly obvious that I just don’t see it? Am I reading too much into it? Who knows….

When it comes to you – I let go and just let things happen and I see things getting better and more concrete…than something anything even a little hair out of place happens and it goes back to not knowing anything…goes back to “what are we?” “Who are we?” – to me the answers to those questions don’t change – every time I’m asked I give the same answer….where are you? And what are you feeling? **can’t you just speak and stop thinking**

I learned a while back that when it comes to love and when it comes to understanding someone or explaining your feelings to someone you truly care about you shouldn’t hold back you shouldn’t think you shouldn’t question you should speak – its those initial thoughts and words that are most accurate of the truth …not to say that what you would say after you think isn’t but those first thoughts are pure emotion and pure honesty….

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going
to stay where you are”

Love, so glad you've returned to me...

::Emotions: in love::

I found a long lost love today…
A love I should’ve never let go…
I promise old love I didn’t forget you…
I was focused on everything but you…
I’m so glad you haven’t given up on me…
So glad you called me…
So glad you realized that I was always truly yours…
The feelings you bring out of me no one could ever bring…
You truly are that light in my dark times…
The true key to my soul is held by you…
I promise old love I will never let you go again…
You know…
you never truly left…
You were always there…
Surrounding me with your beauty…
Surrounding me with your emotions…
Surrounding me with you love…
When you were sad I felt it…
When you were happy I felt it…
When you were angry I felt it…
When you were mellow I felt it…
Every emotion and feeling you had…
I felt it…
I guess I just ignored you…








MUSIC – u and I were meant to be – I shall never leave you……

“Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”

~my life is an album…come listen to my songs~

Live....Laugh...Love...Learn

::Emotions: happy, relieved, fascinated, content, peaceful::

Today I sat back and just looked @ my life – I realized I now see things that I never thought I’d see…Truly ironic – things I never thought would be are being – realizing how naïve and blind “love” can truly make you Its like a sigh of relief – my heart is finally starting to feel free and I’m truly not scared of it….starting to accept the things I cannot change and have no control over…its like that prayer “God grant me to serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference”I now see how I am learning to accept and gain the courage – the wisdom was always there I just suppressed it b/c I was too confused with my wants and needs – more often than not I confused my wants for needs and neglected to truly believe that I could do things on my own…People are just a plus – a treat – a gift given to you that one must learn to cherish and learn to understand that people will come and go but in the end we always have ourselves…

For a long while I believed that I truly NEEDED people and truly NEEDED the comfort of a man…and part of me is still @ that stage…but the more and more I learn myself the more I realize that I don’t NEED anyone – I lost myself in wanting people and looking for comfort in all the wrong places when all I had to do was look within…

I said something to a friend today that just made perfect sense: “If you start depending on someone to the point that you feel you need them you stop living for you and start living for other”I sat back and reflected on that comment – and couldn’t believe that all the words I was looking for were right there inside of me – I caught myself off guard at how well I truly understand that and how I could give that advice…this is when the epiphany came that “Damn girl…all you truly needed all along was to find yourself and learn to completely love and understand yourself”

For most of my life I always made decisions on the opinions of others and the desires of what others wanted for me…always had a strong opinion and have always been very outspoken…but if I truly cared and loved you I just wanted to see you happy and I didn’t care what I had to do – I always put you first….now I realize that I’m not the only one…but that it wasn’t healthy for me – I had no sense of balance between me and that person…so yet another revelations “Stop living your life trying to please everyone and start pleasing yourself – if you truly want someone to love you and know your worth in their life you need to know it first” – so here I am learning my worth and loving me!

So of course my journey continues and I’m sure I’ll have my relapses and there will be times and situations that will push me back – but the lesson I learned today is:: I’m a lot stronger than I give myself credit for and I need to start believing and loving myself whole heartedly….:: it’s a work in progress but always moving forward, remembering the past and taking my learned lessons with me….

I

MOVE

FORWARD…..

nOt LeTtInG u Go.....

am i wrong for not wanting to let go............?

Chaotic Calmness

::emotions ~ anger, hurt, happiness, confusion, disappointment, sad, content, excited, nervous::

Ever feel like the rainbow was there and you saw it?
Ever feel like the storm was coming to an end?

Its an ironic chaotic state - a state of calmness within - inner peace - when the world around you just seems to be fallin apart - things are crumbling down....but with the sound of your moan - the sound of a gasp, a sigh - everything just falls into place....everything for once split moment makes perfect sense...makes things just seem to serene so calm and so perfect.....reality hits and the choas comes back...its a never ending cycle....a cycle of CALM CHAOS.....

My mind is everywhere - i can't centralize enough to make this blog coherant - to make this all run smoothly and make sense...i read back and it becomes a rant...of all different emotions...


I'm often asked "what are we" - how do respond to something like that?
Nothing?
Everything?
Something?
I'm guessing there is no concrete answer...i guess its everything all @ once....i guess we are nothing to someone, everything to someone and something to someone...

Not looking for answers anymore...not looking for clearance...not looking for.....actually i'm looking for everything...

A mental mess....knowing that i don't need you but wanting you - knowing that i shouldn't want you but desiring you - DESIRES...what an intersting word...

Dictionary Meaning of Desire: to wish or long for; crave; want; to express a wish to obtain; ask for; request; sexual appetite or a sexual urge
Dictionary Meaning of Temptation:to entice or allure to do something often regarded as unwise, wrong, or immoral; to attract, appeal strongly to, or invite

Is it truly immoral? it is truly wrong?
*if a temptation or a desire makes you happy is it wrong to do it?* (would love to hear what my followers have to say about this)

---since this is my first real blog, i'll put out to my readers that i'll ask questions (in a different color) periodically that i would love to hear opinions to...so please feel free to respond in a comment....

*things could be so different with one simple decision*

fighting battles has never been a problem to me...i never minded losing them - its part of life - you fall, you bruise, you scrape, you get up....you are stronger and wiser and the next battle isn't as easy....but damn if this war isn't lookin bloody....the final outcome hasn't come out....can't explain it but there is still a fight in me...still a desire a temptation to want to keep fighting....maybe i should maybe i shouldn't....but its always been in my nature

~never give up until you just don't have anymore fight in you ~

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love" ~ Albert Einstein

Getting to know me....

Soooo....I'm here...hoping this will help me learn myself...
Gotta loosen up...
I'll be back.....
Just need to break the ice......