::emotions:....none really - content - @ some points wanting more but realizing life isn't about ur wants its about ur needs and right now needs r being met::
Life has a way of makin u realize things...
Signs u never saw start to become clear...
People u never admired become part of the forefront of ur life...
Situations u never thought u'd b in are becomin everyday life...
Decisions u never thought you'd have 2 make are quickly presenting themselves...
Life has a crazy way of bringin things full circle...
Thing is this circle of life - the inevitable path that everyone completes must start somewhere - starts as a single point - and this is where u make your decisions - where to start the circle and in which direction you should start it in - once the decision is made the path must commence and the end is already in place - its just a matter of how big u decide to make this path and how much of your life you allow this path to consume.
I once read that life is about the choices u make - and the journey is the path it takes to get from start to finish...after living the past few months and watchin people live and make their choices I've come to the conclusion that the statement is true - real for lack of better words.
So everyday I make a choice (whether its small or big) and start my journey...on my path - either closing old chapters in my book of life or continuin to allow those charcters to enter the next chapter in my book...my life.
Always rememberin that the inevitable is just that - I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E.
"It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely."
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
the CIRCLE...the BOOK...my LIFE
::emotions: none really - content @ some points - wanting more @ others but realizin life isn't about ur wants its about ur needs and right now needs r being met::
Life has a way of makin u realize things...
Signs u never saw start to become clear...
People u never admired become part of the forefront of ur life...
Situations u never thought u'd b in are becomin everyday life...
Decisions u never thought you'd have 2 make are quickly presenting themselves...
Life has a crazy way of bringin things full circle...
Thing is this circle of life - the inevitable path that everyone completes must start somewhere - starts as a single point - and this is where u make your decisions - where to start the circle and in which direction you should start it in - once the decision is made the path must commence and the end is already in place - its just a matter of how big u decide to make this path and how much of your life you allow this path to consume.
I once read that life is about the choices u make - and the journey is the path it takes to get from start to finish...after living the past few months and watchin people live and make their choices I've come to the conclusion that the statement is true - real for lack of better words.
So everyday I make a choice (whether its small or big) and start my journey...on my path - either closing old chapters in my book of life or continuin to allow those charcters to enter the next chapter in my book...my life.
Always rememberin that the inevitable is just that - I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E.
"It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely."
Life has a way of makin u realize things...
Signs u never saw start to become clear...
People u never admired become part of the forefront of ur life...
Situations u never thought u'd b in are becomin everyday life...
Decisions u never thought you'd have 2 make are quickly presenting themselves...
Life has a crazy way of bringin things full circle...
Thing is this circle of life - the inevitable path that everyone completes must start somewhere - starts as a single point - and this is where u make your decisions - where to start the circle and in which direction you should start it in - once the decision is made the path must commence and the end is already in place - its just a matter of how big u decide to make this path and how much of your life you allow this path to consume.
I once read that life is about the choices u make - and the journey is the path it takes to get from start to finish...after living the past few months and watchin people live and make their choices I've come to the conclusion that the statement is true - real for lack of better words.
So everyday I make a choice (whether its small or big) and start my journey...on my path - either closing old chapters in my book of life or continuin to allow those charcters to enter the next chapter in my book...my life.
Always rememberin that the inevitable is just that - I.N.E.V.I.T.A.B.L.E.
"It's not a matter of can or cannot, it's a matter of will or will not, everything is a choice, choose wisely."
Saturday, June 6, 2009
taking CHANCES - is makin CHOICES
Emotions: absolutely amazed and happy -- lovin me...
Its absolutely amazin how when you start living things just seem to fall into place...
Its absolutely amazin that when u stop thinkin and start acting things just fall into place...
Its absolutely amazin that when u stop forcin things to happen the things u were tryin 2 make happen just happen...
I live - I let happen - I enjoy.
Life works in the most mysterious ways - its been a pleasent suprise a beautiful suprise the most amazin ride...the ride of life -- u chose ur paths but life still happens - there will b more than 1 fork in the paths to follow so dnt regret nethin and don't wish u took the other path because u'll stop livin and start thinkin...
The rollercoaster that I spoke about b4 no longer is the same rollercoaster I'm on -- that 1 was pur emotion - this one is the rollercoaster of my life....
"Your choices are always half chance" - Life is about takin chances, so I make choices
:::lovin the me I'm becomin:::
Its absolutely amazin how when you start living things just seem to fall into place...
Its absolutely amazin that when u stop thinkin and start acting things just fall into place...
Its absolutely amazin that when u stop forcin things to happen the things u were tryin 2 make happen just happen...
I live - I let happen - I enjoy.
Life works in the most mysterious ways - its been a pleasent suprise a beautiful suprise the most amazin ride...the ride of life -- u chose ur paths but life still happens - there will b more than 1 fork in the paths to follow so dnt regret nethin and don't wish u took the other path because u'll stop livin and start thinkin...
The rollercoaster that I spoke about b4 no longer is the same rollercoaster I'm on -- that 1 was pur emotion - this one is the rollercoaster of my life....
"Your choices are always half chance" - Life is about takin chances, so I make choices
:::lovin the me I'm becomin:::
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
the CONnection
::no real purpose for this post except for the memory::
…I sit…
…I wonder…
…I dream…
…I live…
…I breathe…
…I smile…
The CONnection
The sweet smell of the Yankee Candle…
The street lights shining…
The raining hitting against the roof of the car….
The sounds of music lingering in the background…
The sweet familiar smells….
The hearts beating – with one touch our breath deepens and our hearts race…
No, don’t do that…friends don’t do that he says…
Friends? She wonders
The desire and the magnetic connection to one another never felt like a friend….
The coquettish ways he plays with her…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where he wants to be
The coquettish ways she finds a way to touch him…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where she wants to be
Time passes….songs plays….words lessen…and thoughts soar….
He leans into her…
She closes her eyes – takes a deep breath and remembers all the memories they shared together…
The comforting of his scent…the gentleness of his arms….the pressure he places upon her while he’s holding her….the safeness she felt in his presence…and everything comes back…
She wants him….
“Should I go?” She Says
“Wait til the rain stops…” He says
He lays on her – she holds him
No words are spoken
No words are needed….
For those moments in time they connect again – realizing how much they truly missed each other
He backs away….she lays on him
His hand caressing her back….as if to say: I want to protect you and hold you:
She feels him contemplating….
She feels him thinking….
His hands wander over her body….feeling her soft skin against his hands…running by every curve…taking in every smell….
He stops…his mind wanders again…he looks at her….
She runs her hands down him chest, past his stomach…grazes his penis…only to remember the first time he entered her…
----That cold day in December – a day she lives over and over again – pure bliss - complete pleasure…the clothes came off the intense breathing and anticipation and he came closer to her…the first moment he slowly entered her – the world seemed to stop and all they knew was them…----
She kisses his neck – he kisses her back….
She slides off his belt…slides her hand down his boxers to find an old companion – a companion she knows and remembers so well – a companion she’s missed…
As the rain continues to hit up again the car – you see her polished hands sliding up and down….
Her soft hands rubbing against his soft skin….she hears his heart speed up…she feels her heart speed up…
She swallows deeply…
Holds her breath – just to listen to his body…
They undress themselves…She lays back…
He kisses her….
Comes up against her….her moisture welcomes him….
Enticing him to come closer and deeper….
He slides his arms around her – kissing her…
He feels her breast up against his skin…looks at her…and enters her slowly…
She accepts him…slowly and deeply her body wraps around his….
And just like that Cold Day in December – pure bliss – complete pleasure – intense breathing – hearts racing…
“You feel so good, I forgot how good you felt” he says
“You feel amazing…” She replies
She gets wetter and wetter with every stroke….
He slides in and out of her…kissing her…holding her closer…slow than fast…. than slow than fast again….she wants him close…
She moans his name….
He moans hers….
“I’ve missed you” He moans in her ear – sending chills across her body
“I’ve missed you too” She moans
“I want you to cum for me – I want you to give it to me” He tells her as he reads her body language realizing how good she feels….
Time passes….pleasure increases….
And before she realizes she’s at the point of climax…he knows just what to do…just how to do…just when to do it…
She digs her nails into his back…moaning…”don’t stop”
Bodies clench – Muscles begin to tighten….she feels him pulsating in her…he feels her walls tighten around his penis…
And………………………………………..
:::::::::::breathing deepens, hearts races, they come closer to each others, look at one another:::::::::::
………………………………………………………………………………………They RELEASE!!!!
…wishing the moment wouldn’t end, she gets dressed…kisses him…and says good night…
He watches her walk in the house and races home…..
Both left with racing minds…..knowing the situation but not really sure as to what to do….
She falls asleep to dream of the next time their bodies will meet again….
Until than…she remains his companion…his eternal companion…knowing and dreaming that one day the connection they both feel will be a reality…
“Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, love is a growing up” ~ James Arthur Baldwin
…I sit…
…I wonder…
…I dream…
…I live…
…I breathe…
…I smile…
The CONnection
The sweet smell of the Yankee Candle…
The street lights shining…
The raining hitting against the roof of the car….
The sounds of music lingering in the background…
The sweet familiar smells….
The hearts beating – with one touch our breath deepens and our hearts race…
No, don’t do that…friends don’t do that he says…
Friends? She wonders
The desire and the magnetic connection to one another never felt like a friend….
The coquettish ways he plays with her…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where he wants to be
The coquettish ways she finds a way to touch him…feeling for a split moment that’s exactly where she wants to be
Time passes….songs plays….words lessen…and thoughts soar….
He leans into her…
She closes her eyes – takes a deep breath and remembers all the memories they shared together…
The comforting of his scent…the gentleness of his arms….the pressure he places upon her while he’s holding her….the safeness she felt in his presence…and everything comes back…
She wants him….
“Should I go?” She Says
“Wait til the rain stops…” He says
He lays on her – she holds him
No words are spoken
No words are needed….
For those moments in time they connect again – realizing how much they truly missed each other
He backs away….she lays on him
His hand caressing her back….as if to say: I want to protect you and hold you:
She feels him contemplating….
She feels him thinking….
His hands wander over her body….feeling her soft skin against his hands…running by every curve…taking in every smell….
He stops…his mind wanders again…he looks at her….
She runs her hands down him chest, past his stomach…grazes his penis…only to remember the first time he entered her…
----That cold day in December – a day she lives over and over again – pure bliss - complete pleasure…the clothes came off the intense breathing and anticipation and he came closer to her…the first moment he slowly entered her – the world seemed to stop and all they knew was them…----
She kisses his neck – he kisses her back….
She slides off his belt…slides her hand down his boxers to find an old companion – a companion she knows and remembers so well – a companion she’s missed…
As the rain continues to hit up again the car – you see her polished hands sliding up and down….
Her soft hands rubbing against his soft skin….she hears his heart speed up…she feels her heart speed up…
She swallows deeply…
Holds her breath – just to listen to his body…
They undress themselves…She lays back…
He kisses her….
Comes up against her….her moisture welcomes him….
Enticing him to come closer and deeper….
He slides his arms around her – kissing her…
He feels her breast up against his skin…looks at her…and enters her slowly…
She accepts him…slowly and deeply her body wraps around his….
And just like that Cold Day in December – pure bliss – complete pleasure – intense breathing – hearts racing…
“You feel so good, I forgot how good you felt” he says
“You feel amazing…” She replies
She gets wetter and wetter with every stroke….
He slides in and out of her…kissing her…holding her closer…slow than fast…. than slow than fast again….she wants him close…
She moans his name….
He moans hers….
“I’ve missed you” He moans in her ear – sending chills across her body
“I’ve missed you too” She moans
“I want you to cum for me – I want you to give it to me” He tells her as he reads her body language realizing how good she feels….
Time passes….pleasure increases….
And before she realizes she’s at the point of climax…he knows just what to do…just how to do…just when to do it…
She digs her nails into his back…moaning…”don’t stop”
Bodies clench – Muscles begin to tighten….she feels him pulsating in her…he feels her walls tighten around his penis…
And………………………………………..
:::::::::::breathing deepens, hearts races, they come closer to each others, look at one another:::::::::::
………………………………………………………………………………………They RELEASE!!!!
…wishing the moment wouldn’t end, she gets dressed…kisses him…and says good night…
He watches her walk in the house and races home…..
Both left with racing minds…..knowing the situation but not really sure as to what to do….
She falls asleep to dream of the next time their bodies will meet again….
Until than…she remains his companion…his eternal companion…knowing and dreaming that one day the connection they both feel will be a reality…
“Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, love is a growing up” ~ James Arthur Baldwin
Thursday, April 30, 2009
REVEALation pART 2
emotions:......understanding....
Part 2...
1. I don't understand people - how is it that its so ez for the words "I want to b wit u " to come out of someone's mind but the actions are so complicated - oh ppl.
2. Inhibitions - what is the point of anyone putting rules or regulations on what they truly want to do? Who's idea was that?
3. It seems so simple for people to get what they want out of me and move forward but when they take that piece I have such a hard time letting go of that piece - who sed I wnted to share?
4. I've often feel that I am a step stool for others - I have this way of bringin out these amazing qualities in ppl and makin ppl see them and keep them - but when it comes time to enjoy those qualities they walk away and sum1 else gets the greatness
5. A moment - a memory - a lifetime --i need to lrn to that those r the categories
6. No matter how distant I keep myself frm him.....the moment I c him its like nothing ever happened
7. Mental stimulation is by far the hardest but the most necessary.
8. Why do ppl speak words - is it the truth or more to convince themselves
9. I kno who I truly am - and understand what I want
10. I kno that's I dnt want him as just a friend and will never speak of him being "just my friend"
More to come ....
"If you get the chance take it, if it changes your life let it.
Nobody said it would be easy they just promised it would be worth it."
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
REVEALations pART I
::emotion: ..................::
1. I am a true diamond and the ppl around me have been noticing it - slowly peelin away the ugly layers to allow myself to truly shine - and just like a diamond is forever, when I truly care its forever - good and bad.
2. I've been wearing a mask - and one persin was able to c my true colors and see my true face and truly every aspect of me - and now I fear wit the pain ill wear that mask to him too - tryin to slowly avoid puttin it on, but yesterday I let it happen - told the truth today.
3. U came into my life unexpectedly.....::beautiful suprise::
4. So - gettin close to ppl - what's the point? What does it do? Should ppl b trusted with the most valuable thing in ur life - urself
5. Giving up - what does that mean? Just bc u let sum1 go does it mean u give up on them?? Or could it b that that's where u r supposed 2 b - y is It that the ppl that are so much btr for you u dnt fight for but the ones that want u 2 be sumthing u aren't or dnt make you any better u fight for? I mean seriously - humans make no sense - if one used their head and not their heart one may make decisions differently
6. The ones u give the most to take the most from u but give u the least.
7. I realize that power lies in the person that makes the decisions. Had decisions been made by sumone else and not left solely to one person - people wouldn't have so much power over others.
8. I truly do have the most amazing women in my life....
9. Breakin up is truly hard to do....hey when I was younger it was just a song to me.
10. I have an eternal partner...through the trials and tribulations, all the pain and agony - i can't seem to hate him and be mad at him....
11. Music truly heals the soul....its amazing how many songs one can relate with....
12. I am more in touch with my emotions and myself than i thought I was...i am more rational and levelheaded than i thought i was and in the end I am truly amazing and noone can take that from me...
Within the next few days many more revelations will come - so i labeled this pART 1......
-T
i'll be back shortly.....
"You got to stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone used to be"
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Definition of Happines
::emotions: NONE::
Can someone please define “happiness”?
What does it mean to you???
Looking forward to comments….
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